I am, I wish, I see

I am…

eating lentils

licking my fingers

loathing and loving my rascally cat

 

wondering about this life

anxious about my reserves

                       

noticing a fleeting loneliness

aware of blooming clarity

 

appreciating the mornings

the rhythms, the introspection

 

grateful for the hills, the valleys, the owl that hoots

the sun that warms

 

I wish…

 

for expanding time

for a chance to revisit my mistakes

and the opportunity to amend a wrong

 

for silence and crickets and mugs of milky tea

for fireflies and hand holding and a little voice that cries “mumma” and

“come back to me please!”

 

I see…

 

me, standing there in a dress

you, smudge of dirt on your chin

an apple cart between us

a wooden ladder propped up against a tree

 

an affection for our mutual past swims about us

like dolphins playing in the surf

 

the sea seeps between my toes

throws water up at your knees

I dive into the waves,

swim out beyond the breakers

 

and when I look back

you are but a dot

a blink

a turned shoulder

 

a man with whom I used to be

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